baybayin; self love, self respect.

its bitter.good.hate.love.miss.unknown.friends.enemies.lie.trust.

:(

erm..

I wish my ass wasn’t so prideful and would just say sorry already. I admit it… Majority of it was my fault. 

Just overall too much misunderstanding happened, but now I don’t know usually I just drop shit like crazy and don’t care. I seriously hate that I got my feelings into this one when I never do with other guys I’ve previously/dated in the past because I already knew nothing more was going to come out of it. Now he doesn’t even want to talk to me.

I’ve only fallen for 2 people and this one I wasn’t necessarily falling for him.. but I knew in the beginning he was a very humble genuine person who was not like other guys. And I labeled him like all other guys and him being nice I turned it into a another game. 

Yeah their were times where things he would say I’d be like wtf…or his intentions where somewhere else and we all know how prideful and defensive I am so my natural instinct were to obviously defend myself to make sure I know I will be ok.

Now I feel like an ass hole.. Bleh. 

I’m sure I’ll bounce back quick if things turn bittersweet.. Just kind of sucks not knowing exactly what happened.

But I still stand by the statement of guys are more confusing than girls. 

This compared to the last post I’ve posted is why I’m so wtf.. I never thought this day would come where I’d blabbing like a girl.

“Carolyn why do you keep saying you sound like a girl…YOU ARE A GIRL ITS OK!!”

What my best friends told me a couple days ago. We all know I’m a hard ass thats why. Hhahahahha jk. Kind of.

Flattering.

So… This year Cupid must be on my side?

Quick update on the “dating” life

I’ve met someone really nice, insanely nice. To the point I seriously don’t know if I can adjust to it. For those of you who know me.. I can be very insensitive&blunt but overall we all know I’m a nice person :) We’re still getting to know each other and I’m trying so hard not to be in denial and just keep going with the flow. Our personalities are nothing a like so yeah it does kind of suck sometimes.. But yeah.. Were both on the same page as well so at least I have an idea were this “talking” is going. But yeah.. So that’s that.

For me this is REALLY rare to have multiple guys ask me out in a matter of like 2-3 months. One now whom I’m really good friends with now, and some a few other guys who’ve asked me out, but just wasn’t feeling it. So its really different for me and flattering.. It’s nice. 

But yeah… So there’s a quick update with that. 

Other than that I’ve been COMPLETELY MIA. School work study homework sleep repeat. I’m rarely even home anymore :( 

Just have to stay focused and everything will be falling into place real soon and PA school I’m coming for you! 

Staying motivated. <3

@tsaldanax3

awww. giiirl, you can get anyone to be your valentine!!! 

and i know im kinna bummed :( darn school..

thank you school.

i cant celebrate Valentines Day tomorrow :(